Life Transfusion

aka a message my past self sent into the future for my present self to hear

It's a  spiritual blackout, emotional drought
I got doubts about what my life is about
should I walk this route, can I go all out
can I lose myself for the knowledge I crave?
remain brave as my death comes in tidal waves?
I cant become a slave to their enclave
but will it all end in my shallow grave?
or a shock wave, induce a new train of thought?
My souls distraught fighting off what I've been taught
for I know what I've learned it eternally more real
when this reality is trampling me with its spiked heels
ya the world will heal without my word
but I want it heard
I want the truth to be known about the 3rd
what really occurred, not what politicians slurred
what history blurred
it's so absurd

Don't want to love every person, I don't want to save the world
but I can't help but trying I'm a giving little girl
my dad made me this way, leading by example
I spread myself so thin that I can't get a handle
but I can't imagine being any other way
I could try but there's not another image to portray
I can't imagine being any other way
I could try but there's not another image to portray